7.22.2010

My brother is like Lazarus (dream)

I had a most interesting dream last night. Before I launch into the magical, horrific details; I need to tell you a true fact.  I have a brother who was born two years before me.  He died after two weeks due to a missing chamber in his heart (or something like that); he is a star role in this dream. The part that absolutely shocks me.
The scene takes place at my old house in Sandy. My parents and I are trying to take care of a three dead bodies (plastic or real, I'm not sure).  My basement is bare, all the walls and insulation are missing and the the bodies are in random places around. It was really gross or scary like it sounds. I felt annoyed to carry them with my dad because I was so tired.  My friend, Aaron, was there and instead of making me feel better or helping me carry it. He just stares at the bodies and sobs uncontrollably. (Thanks, Aaron).
Finally, it's over. My parents and I are upstairs lounging after such a strenuous time.  I'm sitting in one corner of the couch and my mom in the other. Aaron is gone and my dad is sitting in the rocking chair.  He looks over at me and says, "Michelle, your brother is coming up."  I knew that my brother, Brent, was supposed to have a room downstairs and in my mind's eye (in the dream) I could see the room with all of the stuff that should have been his.  The floor was kind of glowy in his room and started raising in the air. 
The couch and rocking chair face the stairs and I see Brent walking up the stairs, covered in a brown/black mixed blanket. It wasn't creepy, I was excited to see him.  At the top of the stairs, he takes off the blanket and walks over.  Brent stands in the middle of the room, tall with darkish hair like Derrick and Mark, looking at me with dark green eyes.  He smiles and sits down between my mom and me.  He sits there next to me and instead of talking with all of us, he looks at me, "Michelle, I have something to tell you."  I could see his excitement and joy in his wide open smile, showing his teeth, long and nearly perfect, with two teeth slanting slightly to the left side of his face. He put his left hand on my folded knee and looks deep in my eyes and I wake up. It is so annoying to wake up at such pivotal moments in a dream.  It felt so incredibly real and he looked like he could be my brother. So weird!

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